I sit here with my back
against the headboard and my sub sitting between my legs. We were both coming
down from the highs we’d been enjoying. Although I often experience feeling of
euphoria during a heavy play session, I have never been subjected to the
melancholy some go through at a sudden drop in endorphin levels and I don’t
know if I should credit it to sheer luck or my own self-control. Unfortunately,
the same cannot be said for my sub who occasionally has undergone emotional turmoil
that can lead to depression if not cared for properly.
Even now I watch as he
withdraws into himself, drawing up his legs and wrapping his arms around them
to curl into an oversized ball.
Our lifestyle choices are about
us, our wants and needs. But the intense activities that are part of our relationship
can have some downsides; one of which is referred to as Sub drop. It is a return
to ordinariness from the elevated amounts of endorphin and is very much a part
of our lives.
Sometimes it happens quickly,
lasting no time at all. Other times it takes place slowly over several hours.
The effects can be extremely pleasant or staggeringly distasteful.
As a Dom, my sub is my overriding
concern. It is my responsibility to provide his aftercare and it is an obligation I take on
willingly.
I try unsuccessfully to pull
him back to me, but my attempts only cause him to whimper and stiffen even
more. I settle for caressing him, kissing his shoulders and whispering words of
love and comfort into his ear.
My mantra consists of
repeatedly telling him how important he is; how badly I need him in my life;
how much he is loved and that he is safe. I tell him of my respect and
admiration for him and how much I cherish the gift of his submission that he
gives to only me.
Eventually my words penetrate
the fog he’s in and he slowly relaxes. Trust has returned. It was hard earned.
He’d been abandoned in the past, once left to drive home alone while still in
subspace. I would no more permit that than I would allow him to drive drunk and
he knows it.
His body has become pliant and
he seeks out my attention. I reach around him and fondle his genitals. He spreads
his legs and lifts his backside to give me better access, as he all but purrs with
contentment. Although he responds to my touch, he will not ejaculate. That will
come later.
Right now, as the one
accountable for the position my lover is presently in, I will do my utmost to
care for him.
It’s about mutual trust, and
while we are both answerable with trying to understand and give pleasure to each
other, in this situation it is mostly my place to take the lead and provide the
steadiness which my sub requires and is more than worthy of.
My encouragement was bringing
him down at a slow soothing pace, which is all we can hope for.
The End
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